Uni

That’s it dammit! It’s about time I go do some work!

Wow, long time no post.

I’m heading to my homeland today. 2 hour trip, motorbike screaming just to maintain 100kph.

I’m visiting a friend I haven’t seen in maybe a year? maybe more. Should be fun.

Uni is a little crappy lately. I dropped a class, got to make it up next semester. They’re all very nice to me about it though. I’m still behind drastically in one of my classes (which I should have finished completely by now).

My sis is moving in for a few months. Haven’t lived with her in years.. Should be good.

And my big news, is that I’m committed to visiting New Zealand over the winter break. If only for a few weeks. I aiming at a month. Lots wandering around aimlessly. Maybe I can rent a bike there? Price could be an issue though.

If I like it too much, I might not want to come back.

I just need to get away. Do something on my own for a change.

I’ve been gaming too much, to avoid study. That’s why I fucked up my class so much.

But still… I’ve finished 4 seasons of Pro Evolution Soccer 6. The lynchpin of my team is Zinedine Zidane. I wouldn’t let him retire. In the game he just turned 38, even at 38 he’s amazing.

Speaking of which, I saw the movie “Zidane”, it’s excellent art movie. A full game from Zidane’s perspective, no dialogue as such. He gets sent off in the end, but creates an amazing goal. He drags his feet when off the ball, as if he’s playing with an imaginary ball. So subtle.

I haven’t shot archery in weeks. I’m getting back into though.

Ballet just finished for the term. 2 week break. I’ll miss it.

I’ve decided I need to do exercise of some sort in the mornings or I do nothing of use with my day. Cycling, yoga, or a jog, maybe even swimming, but that seems like too much.

I’ve been downloaded and purchasing tons of music lately. I bought a Sophie Koh cd, should be arriving soon. Some Veda Hille CD’s arrived. I’ve got some new Nina Nastasia albums, and I’m expecting some more Tujiko Noriko. It’s funny I think most of my music lately seems to be by women artist. That’s a turn around. I actually remember saying I couldn’t find any music by women artists. Shows how hard I looked.

I’m currently studying hyperbolic geometry. It has a natural mind bending to it. Everything works out nice and neatly, but we are constantly facinated that that is so.

Honours is indeed hard. It isn’t so much the difficulty of the subjects, I can handle the level of maths provided I study. The problem is keeping up.

It moves so fast. I have to spend all day every day studying. Then I discover I haven’t done a thing on my thesis all week. Yesterday I left uni at 10pm, got home had dinner, sat around for half an hour, then crashed. I slept like shit though because my mind couldn’t stop thinking about the maths problems I’d just worked on. So then I slept in and missed the morning of study.

I think the key to not going insane will be to grapple onto the thing I am doing at the time, forget about progress, and just trust in planning that I will come out the other side each week.

I am suddenly faced with an all consuming beast that is modern algebra.

I have just looked into definitions of the determinant for linear tranformations on real vector spaces. Now I’m delving into the determinant for commutative rings. I find when I’m reading up on things I am constantly asking myself “what the fuck does that mean?”

Time to learn about fields, rings, modules, tensor products, exterior products. bla bla.

The grand goal so far is a general definition of the determinants which applies for non-commutative rings, and the nicer more friendly algebras. There is one, but I can’t follow it at all.

I was confirmed for honours. I am now fully enrolled, have my own desk and key to get in. I have computer lab access, and even after hours access. Pretty neat all round.

I have a supervisor and have even started getting stuck into my thesis topic. My thesis will be soaked in Linear Algebra.

All in all good news.

In other good news, I actually went to a party yesterday where I enjoyed myself. I met new people, woah.

*touches wood*